Battle fatigue

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Journal entry:

Good morning Lord,

Do you have anything you want to say to me this morning?

Enter into my rest. Steven I will not fail you. Be not bewildered for I am right here. For, you have taken refuge under my wings. You are divinely protected. Watch how I care for you. This you know. [That] I love you and will never leave you. My time of distance is your time of testing. Persevere until the end for it will release.

You know Lord, I feel so defeated. I feel like there is no hope. Hope is a scary thing because as I hope in relationships, employment, or normalcy it gets further away. Lord talk to me about hope.

My son, it saddens me to hear you talk like that for I am the source of hope. You’re lacking hope because you’re lacking trust in me. I have care for your life I will pull you through. Rely on me and I will do it. Give me your pains and hurts and rest in me. I will take care of you. Be not moved by circumstances but only by me. I the God of all comfort will comfort you and give you a future.

Lord, talk to me about the anointing. I have been asking you to place me under your glory. Am I correct in doing this?

My son, my anointing is [not] for everyone. Only my elect in whom I trust. Let know one deceive you. I have elected you. You are elected and commissioned to do a work in me. I will complete you. I am your Alpha and Omega your everything.

I will not leave you just trust in me. In pains, joy, sorrow, or the sword, I am forever with you. My son, you have purpose. You will carry much. That’s I why you went through much. Just know. I am for you. Your experiences’ will benefit others.

Know that every step you take I am with you. Behold my hands and my feet and the shed blood I shed for you. Know that I will never stop loving you. For I the Lord, am a compassionate God, full of loving kindness.

Lord, is the “seer anointing” for me? Have you given me the ability to see in the spirit realm?

My son, all have this ability just some to a high degree. In your imagination you will see. Look and keep on looking and I will open your eye. Your desire and faith will open the door and you will see. Yes, my son you will indeed see.

Lord, talk to me about your Rhema word and it coming to pass. Is their anything I am doing that has delayed things?

There is a season for everything. Your season has ended and life will again move for you. You have learned long suffering and perseverance and patience. Although [you] grumble yet I have approved you because you are faithful. Sit back and allow me to bring the blessing to you. Be not moved.  Yes, do your do diligence but know I will bring it to you. Kings and priests are made in the fire. From David onward all felt the pain and suffered and received. They were mature but they knew me. As they went through they learned to trust me. Look not to the hills, to nothing else but for total fulfillment in life. Submit all your life in its entirety to me. I know your heart. I will make a resting place for you. Know that I love you.