My First Journaling - Not What I Expected

Hello,

I just bought the book and went through the first portion of it and then watched the first video 3 days ago. I was expecting to hear God's voice and have a vision like described in the book, but had an experience that I never ever expected.

Here's what happened:

I finished watching the video at about 2 pm and right away went to pick up my daughter from work. As I was driving there and then waiting for her, I had an absolutely overwhelming feeling of joy that I cant even desribe with any words. It was an extatic joy! I imagined myself at work, being happy about everything, smiling all the time, blessing everyone, praying for everyones' healing etc. Normally there is lots of depression going on at our work. So this was extremely unnatural and this is the first thing that I've noticed. The Joy was SUPERNATURAL.

Then as I was waiting in my car, I saw a boy in my rearview mirror. He was walking by my car. And I caught myself thinking that if that boy kicked my car and put a huge dent in it, I'd come out, give him a big hug and bless him!

Again, to fully appreciate what was happening I need to stress that I love my car so much it's pathetic. I try to keep it the way it looked the first day I bought it. But at that moment, I completely forgot about how much I love my car and how much I'd love to bless that boy walking by (I've never seen him before).

Then I thought it will probably look to other people like I was kind of out of my mind if I was like that every day (blessing everyone who was mean to me). And then I kind of felt (since I did not "hear" anything, I kind if "knew" in my heart) the Lord asking if I'd mind/like being like that despite of what others might think. I said "I'd love to feel like that till the rest of my life." And then I felt (hard to describe how) that the Lord smiled.

And after that the feeling of that extatic joy gradually left me. I did not know what to call that experience except I knew it was very very supernatural. The next day I was at work and was thinking about it, not actually asking any questions about it, just kind of trying to re-live it. And all of a sudden these two words popped in my mind "OPEN HEAVEN". So now I know that I had my first Open Heaven. Praise God! I never asked for it, I never even thought that something like that could happen in my own life. It just happened! I remember thinking as I was feeling that joy "That's probably how people in Heaven always feel!" Our Lord is AWESOME!!

Just was wondering if anyone has similar experience after reading this book. God bless!