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Healing Past Wounds

A significant time of healing came when I was leading a small group through Prayers that Heal the Heart. No one had volunteered that evening for inner healing session, so I did.

The situation was a time in boy scouts when I was about eleven years old. I had the opportunity to go on an extended hike with just a few scouts and the leaders. I wanted very much to go. The scene was on a ball field and my father came up to me and told me I was not good enough to go. I was devastated but showed no emotion. This phrase “You are not good enough.” had stayed with me all my life.

I entered back to the scene as a boy and saw my father come up to me and tell me I could not go. I relived those same emotions I had experienced as a young boy. I looked for Jesus in the scene and saw Him come up the third base line to us. We were near home plate. He walked right by me and went to my father and started ministering to him. It seemed like a long time. I was wondering "What about me?" Then they were both on their knees. After that the Lord came up to me, put His hand on my shoulder and said, 'We are not going on a hike, we are going on a journey." and we walked off together.

In reliving this brief scene, while the Lord was ministering to my father, I realized how wounded my father was, having been put in an orphan asylum with his brother after his mother had died young, his father not being able to work and take care of the boys as well. His father remarried but he and his brother were never accepted by the step mother. During this session my heart broke for my father and a love for him welled up inside me that I had never had before and I desired to know him even though he had passed away several years earlier. That sense of not being good enough left me. The words, “We are going on a journey.” also had considerable significance to me as I recalled all the Lord had done for me in the previous several years. The journey has been incredible.

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Comment by Dennis Green on March 7, 2011 at 11:12am: Thanks Patricia, I pray it will open others up to more of Christ in their lives.

Comment by patricia vanderhoek on March 7, 2011 at 10:55am: How utterly beautiful! Thanks so much for sharing this . I will pass it on to those I know need to hear of your experience. And to think that at the end of the journey we return to our heavenly Father, not as those who were not good enough, but we return hidden in Christ, our life. The Father looks at us, and only sees His Son Jesus Christ. By grace saved to know Christ as our true birth, our new born self. All for His glory, nothing of self, Christ all and in all!

Comment by Dennis Green on March 6, 2011 at 11:04pm: Amen, Peter.

Comment by Peter Lovett on March 5, 2011 at 7:32am: Dennis,
Thank you for sharing this healing. Our God is an Awesome God who in His Awesome Wisdom knew that His Presence in our lives, past,present, and future would bring Life, Joy, and Peace to us. The unreconciled breach with your dad has been healed "By God's Presence" Thank You Jesus! What an Awesome Gospel we have to share!
The truth, that "you should not feel that you aren't good enough", is true, but the Presence of God in you now causes that truth to be alive! Now apart from the Law, the Righteousness of God has been made manifest through Christ Jesus! (Rom 3:21) Thank You, Father God!