Surrender

I come before you to lay down my heavy burdens, knowing Your yoke is light and easy. But, as I approach the alter, within my mind, I am filled with fear; how can I let all this go? How can I trust you to handle the issues? How do I know you can take each one?

Doesn’t Your Word say, I have to seek, I have to do? I am filled with confusion and i feel my heart harden –
Lay my burdens down to you! WHAT! Aren’t You the reason I have them in first place? Wasn’t it You that handed me over to my enemies to devour me? Did you do all this just to break me now, to bring me to my knees because you didn’t think I served You good enough?!

I fall, tears streaming from eyes, pain, hurt, betrayal; it’s all too much. I don’t understand! What, what do you want?! Didn’t I give it to you? Didn’t I accept You as my savior? I believed in my heart and professed with my mouth You are my Lord and Savior… Why are you treating me as an outsider? Why do you turn Your love and protection from me? What did I do to deserve all this? What is my sin, please, please tell me, I promise I will repent. I will renounce it, just stop the pain, hurting – Father anything, anything…

A voice breaks through my confusion, “stop serving, there isn’t a god. Would a loving god allow all this to happen to you? A loving god really wouldn’t make this so hard would he?”

My tears dry up, I stop; whose voice was that?

Father, it wasn’t you that did any of this! The enemy has been sending attacks; wave upon wave to bring me to this point. To question you, to denounce you! Father, forgive me! Your children perish for the lack of knowledge. I forgot to pray. I forgot to read your word, I forgot to give charge to the angels you sent to me to battle for me. I forgot to enable the Holy Spirit you gave me! I did this, I allowed this! Father, I cry out, forgive me and I declare in mighty roar, you are a Loving Father. You have made provision, it was me, I had forgotten. I got busy and allowed overwhelming stress to shackle me in chains. NO MORE ~ I break these chains in the name of Jesus Christ; the one that came and defeated death and the grave. I declare victory in the name of Jesus Christ, Yeshua!

I lay my burdens upon the alter and I watch them burn, lifting up to I Am. I release my burdens and I accept your yoke for it is in deed, light and easy! – Praise you Father, for you are loving

Waves of healing flow from the Throne room, I can feel the healing anointing rain down. My dry bones become refreshed and I feel the warmth on my face. I let go, I surrender and from that place of abandonment, I feel the healing overtake me. I stand to my feet and praise you! I shout glory and honor are yours forever. For you are just and true!